Sept 30

Oh I am so beginning to hate Tuesdays and Thursdays. The good thing to look forward to is my main floor will be clean today. THANK YOU PATTY!! Why then do I hate Tuesdays and Thursday, because these are the days Jamison now goes to pre-school. These are the mornings that we have to make sure he eats more than two bites of breakfast at our house because he won’t have the chance to eat a second breakfast. These are the days I get to drag him into the classroom to see one little boy clinging to his dad’s neck with tears running down his face. Then we have another little boy screaming and crying that is trying to get out to catch up to the caregiver that dropped him off. These are the days that I now have him clinging to my leg or next telling me not to go that he will miss me that he doesn’t like pre-school as tears now run down his face. Ever day we go it gets worse but I keep hoping it will be better. I keep reminding my self that this is only the 5th day of pre-school. Then again, these are now the days that I am at work until 5:45 because I don’t get out of the school until 9:00. Today I sat him on the floor with a book and pillow in his lap (hoping this would give me a head start) as I ran out the door. I pulled the door shut on his tear soaked face and for the rest of the morning I hear the echo of “But I love my mama.” Yes, it breaks my heart. Yes, I want to cry and have a drink before I go into work. Yes, I want to ask the dad that has the same thing happen is it easier as a dad? If it is Brian is taking him on Tuesday you can believe it!

September 14

Jamison started preschool today. He is too little to go to school. I think I need to go get him back and just sit on the couch holding him! They can't grow up this fast!